Saturday, September 29, 2007
i keep a folder of all the things u told me last time. all the sweet memories just came back when i reread them. i cherish them so much. felt all the love coming from the words. no matter how short the emails were, u had time for me.
then within a few emails, it all changed to something so sour. the only email i have left of u scholding me. the harsh words. breaks my heart. why did i even had the guts to open the folder and read the mails? after so long, i forgot how it felt to love, or to feel the hatred when u used those cruel words against me. Forgot the long cold war we had after suspicions arose and rumours started flying around. I bet u didnt realise they reached my ears.
u moved on. but i stayed around for quite some time. u might have thought i found it quite easy to forget and get on with life, those words coming from me. but in actual fact, i think it has been a harder road for me than for u.
now u treat me worse than a stranger. dont reply my messages, ignore my smses, pretend u cannot see me when i know u did. "
I don't know why u have become like this" is what u said. i think this phrase would be more suitable if i said it to u now.
i am who i am today in this matter mainly because of u. if only u knew.
thank God u dont know my blog.
posted by ~luckystar~ @ 1:37 AM